I love it here!

I love being Seraphina Josefine.  I love having no obligations to be, say, or do anything other than as I please.  Complete freedom of expression.  No fear of darkness, guilt, self-loathing, inadequacy or mistakes.  I am a fictional character!!  I can do no wrong.

So who am I?  Been dying to discover myself, really.  And now here I am being born, emerging.  Something translucent, floating in the ether.. the "net".  Formless, imaginary, yet grounded in the real.  Yes, this feels good.  

Let's begin with my name.  **Poof**  Just a quick look on the net and I am magically defined as:  the feminine form of the latin name Seraphinus, derived from the biblical word Seraphim, which was hebrew in origin and meant "fiery ones."  The Seraphim were apparently an order of angels, described by Isaiah in the Bible as having six wings each.  And the name was borne by St. Seraphina, a 5th century martyr.

And Josefine is of course the feminine of Joseph.  The English form of the Hebrew name Yosef or Iuceph.  Originally it meant "May Jehovah Add" or "Jehovah has added."  Perhaps I, Seraphina Josefine, am a Jehovah's witness?  Heheheeeeee

Wow.  There is so much to explore in a given name.  Names are these words that are infused with sooooo much energy, both historically and in the present moment in which they are carried by an individual life and recognized by all those with whom that individual encounters.  Names are powerful.  They call things out from the cosmic pool into being, they call something forth into a reality plane.  The more the name is used, the more layers of energy that compound upon it, and give it essence.

I love being able to speak in this way, as Seraphina Josefine.  I can tap in and out of whatever domains I wish without needing to know, to be right, to fit in, to be classified.  Is this true about names, what I say?  Does it matter?  It's up to me.  And you, for your part, are entitled to think whatever you want.  I am not bound by your thoughts.

OOOhhh, wikipedia has more juicy fodder for my archetypal construction.  How wonderful to go about creating oneself just as one chooses.  I cannot wait to see how I grow, and who I become!  I am fueled by a name, the creative imagination, and my Mother & Father Cyberspace!   It says here in Wikipedia that St. Thomas Aquinas had something to say about the nature of the Seraphim.  He says: 

"The name 'Seraphim' does not come from charity only, but from the excess of charity, expressed by the word ardor or fire.  Hence Dionysius (Coel. Hier. vii) expounds the name 'Seraphim' according to the properties of fire, containing an excess of heat.  Now in fire we may consider three things.

"First, the movement which is upwards and continuous.  This signifies that they are borne inflexibly towards God.

"Secondly, the active force which is 'heat,' which is not found in fire simply, but exists with a certain sharpness, as being of most penetrating action, and reaching even to the smallest  things, and as it were, with superabundant fervor; whereby is signified the action of these angels, exercised powerfully upon those who are subject to them, rousing them to a like fervor, and cleansing them wholly by their heat.

"Thirdly we consider in fire the quality of clarity, or brightness; which signifies that these angels have in themselves an inextinguishable light, and that they also perfectly enlighten others."  

I am Seraphina Josefine.

  

 

Sustaining Life

Life has its own self-sustaining mechanisms built into place to ensure its very survival.  

That's what seeds are.  

That's why we are paying so much attention to the Earth, and the environment, and our own survival as a human species suddenly...  You can see it in the stories emerging today.  Go see Wall-E.  It's a beautiful, artistic, poetic seed.

What we are actually doing is recycling our consciousness.  Recycling:  a material returning to a previous stage in a cyclic process.  We are going back to the beginning of the story.  Some primal instinct of survival in us takes just a fragment of our collective awareness back to the beginning when there was no separation between earth and man.  No separation between God and man.  Thus, we are once again returning to the point at which we cared a little bit more about our home.  "Home" a symbol representing the place where there is no separation ...of anything... from anything else... and everything is whole.  Home, Mother and Earth are synonymous.  All of these are symbols, or metaphors for a lack of separation, and the peace found within those moments that feel like "our home, Mother Earth" that we all long for.  

Another Step

Seraphina Josefine, Seraphina Josefine... 

It's so interesting to create a new reality, a virtual reality of yourself - for yourself.  It's like a new frontier, a new galaxy... awaiting.  So strange being here in this reality that does not exist to "put yourself out there" yet under an alias.  I wonder what the name I chose means?   What does it symbolize?  Here in this place I can explore it.  Free run with a healthy dose of insanity to break down the barriers.

There is a living breathing pulse to the internet.  It, along with man and his other modern technologies, and also time, space, history and the future ..... all stream together with age-old tribal patterns, tales and symbols.  Visuals, music.  The matrix is coming!  

And if it is, what will be the opportunity?  What does it mean?  As Seraphina Josefine I guess I might speak in riddles, or paradox, but I am free to explore what has yet to be understood.  I do get the feeling sometimes that it is true what the Oracles say, that this has all happened before.

I just watched the movie Wall-E, which, prior to going I hadn't really been interested in seeing.  In spite of my resistance, I just utterly fell in love with it.  Wall-E was this mish-mush, mash-up of "I Am Legend", "Battlestar Galactica", "Lost" and "Star Wars" rolled into the very latest in animation art.  These are stories that explore the very essence of human survival, love and compassion, war and survival, magic, and the cosmic unknown!  The ancient stories revealing unto themselves and now in the form of a surreal, musical-visual, almost child-like experience.  Universal communication without a common language.  I love Oracles, messages, archetypal figures, the energy of the unending story of birth, awakening, death, and rebirth.  In fact, this is Wall-E!

Wall-E also has a vision of 2012 in it.  I recently discovered "the whole 2012 thing" not that long ago.  At first I was scared of what I thought it meant, and didn't want to know.  Instinctively I knew there was a deep truth in it, and I was not sure I wanted to discover anyone else's version of that truth.  I was incredibly intrigued and utterly drawn to learn more but didn't dare read a book, do a web search.  I had the sense that I would become obsessed with it before I even understood all the literature out there on the subject meant, and I really wanted to keep my perspective "pure".  Since then, I've read a few chapters in a book on it, and scanned the internet here and there, but mostly I've just allowed it to rest inside my consciousness every so often.  And every so often I see a bounce between my own unconscious and the larger, living consciousness.  I think that is an aspect of what 2012 represents for us.  An emerging from a sleep state and random, self-destructive, low-vibrational behaviors that necessarily keep leading us up into the love, the light, and the life force - pure energy.  Wall-E.  

Wall-E.  He's just this sweet and simple animated-robot-guy with pupils in his eyes and an E for empathy, an E for ecstasy, in his brand.   He's the robot with a human heart.  A machine made in man's own image.  Something less than man, yet respectable enough to be in service of him.  Even this little robot is touched by the life force, simply because he is.  And it is his own survival instinct, combined with a universal longing to experience true love, that in the end saves humanity from the trappings of it's own self destruction!

Wow.  I get to write such cool stuff and it doesn't even need to make sense to anyone ...unless it does!!  :)

The First Step

I thnk I figured out a solution to some of my questions.  Make up a ficticous character out of a real person (myself) and create an alternate reality on the web.  The possibilities are endless.  Incredible to think this may not actually be so novel...  But the beginning is in the end.  I'm sure we will all see what the point is soon or later.  I've figured out a way to connect the real with the unreal.  Keep watch.  This is where it's gonna take place.  I'll start by journaling in an electronic anti-timescape, and perhaps I'll add actual copy of my own journals.  Who will I be with complete freedom of creativity grounded in physical reality?  I look forward to sharing the adventure with you...